what I miss (the most) about dating is the (simple) physical contact;

like holding hands, kissing, and all that shit you know.

there is something about it that is just comforting, in a way.

and I thought that talking/ranting about it would make me feel better

but it's only making me want to cuddle and watch movies or anything even more.

yeah that shit sucks
and I really want a dog now.

I really really really really want to learn surfing.
I know how difficult it is but something about it makes it so...captivating.

I think I'll miss you forever

come and go

the constant pain
and sadness
are fading.
slowly, little by little
but they are finally going away.
after months and months
they are finally leaving.
I still...feel.. the same though.
Thing is
now
I can think about it
without my heart breaking
into pieces every time.
please let it stay that way

my head is pounding
my eyes are heavy
and
my heart is aching

Stop

I know exactly

What I should do,
But
I'm not sure
That
I want to
Or
If I even have the strength
To do it.
I am complicating
Everything
For nothing.
Now tell me what's new in that.

le nombre de fois que j'ai ravalé mon égo pour toi est ridicule
i hate you

I never really cared about v day but today was painful I admit it
actually everything was okay until I got home and felt lonely
lol can I be more miserable pls

Remember when I said I felt better?
Well it isn't the case anymore
This shit aka my moods/feelings is a real roller coaster right now
I can't
I really want to be done with all this
I  C A N ' T

Rise and Shine my little sunshine

Winter doesn't feel like winter lately...
As much as I can't wait for spring/summer, I'm getting worried here

I lack motivations for everything in life
And it's slowly destroying me

One of the top things on my bucket list:
- learn to surf

I lost 10 pounds when I went back to CEGEP in September, and now I'm pretty sure I gained the weight back because of university. basically, fuck myself and I should have to stick to this new work out routine I planned or I might kms
(I don't even know where this weight obsession is coming from...)

I wish I had bigger boobs
boobs are great
(lol)
(I'm serious)

I can't pour out my heart
To anyone, anymore
About something so personal
Something no one I know would understand
I can't pour out my heart
Without being judged
So the only thing that's left for me
Is to be scared
And to worry
Alone

Kissing him goodbye was (so) bittersweet today for some reasons...
I didn't want to go home
I wanted to stay with him and cuddle and talk and laugh and all that shit
I could tell he wanted to say something before I got out of the car but he did nothing so I just acted along...why
And I'm still not used to the fact that I'm seeing someone and it's going pretty well so far and I don't ever feel uncomfortable with him and even though I always overhink/overreact about everything, I know everything will be fine and this sentence/post must end here because it makes no sense (lol....).

I like him.
I like the idea of being with him.

I actually feel like I'm about to punch someone it's not even fun anymore
And I just want to give up on everything aka studying for my last midterm, relationships with some people and just life in general

Can you tell I had a not so good/bad week now

Waking up to a view like that would make my life

I don't know if it's because of the moody weather lately, but I miss summer sfm and it makes me sad...haa....
:(

Pissed off

People who start telling you something but don't want to finish it..............
Are you asking to be punched or something